2 day was shitty. lastnight i was on the phone for long hours with my g/f and i preached at her how much i valued honisty and trust. after i talked to her i did some stuff that im not proud of and i lied about what i did. when i told her she was very upset and i felt like crap and still do. u see i had cut my self and she said if i ever did it she would do something worse and so i lied to try to protect her in the end i told her after things happened. was it the right thing to do? i dont know and hopefully i will find out with time if what i did was right or wrong. personaly i think it was wrong, but i do deeply care about her and now im at a loss. i could lose the 1 i do truly care 4 and the 1 i love to be around. i hope she  will understand what she means to me.

Mat